New Years Resolutions...

"Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no ones definition of your life; define yourself." Harvey Fierstein.



My favorite quote. I was thinking last night that I need a New Years resolution. Besides the obvious things like stop my bad habits, eat better, exercise more, study harder, I wanted a resolution that would mean something to me. I thought over the past year and thought of the areas that were trouble for me. Such areas were being silenced, being a victim, and allowing other people to dictate my actions. So basically, the exact opposite of the quote. It made sense for my resolution to be live by that quote. I'm learning to live for myself, not others; not allow people to silence me; not doing what other people think I should do. I'm tired of being pushed around and its time to take action!! Jamie's Resolution for 2007: not allowing myself to be silenced, never allowing myself to become a victim, and not accepting other people's definition of my life, but defining myself.

Song of the Week: A Day to be Alone - One Less Reason



 

Messenger can always bring out the truth...

Again, suffering from insomnia, I was just talking to a friend on messenger. It never ceases to amaze me how messenger can bring the truth out. I'm always more inclined to say things that I would not say in person or over the phone. First of all, why is that?! So, my friend is experiencing some lady problems. Being the good friend that I am, I lend an ear and try my best to see things from a girl’s point of view and offer solutions or just what the girl might be thinking. I must admit that we can be quite stupid sometimes, but really…everyone can be! He told me he was fuming after learning of something this girl did while they were broken up. I asked him if he was jealous…and he reluctantly admitted he was. I told him he obviously still had feelings for this girl, and he was even more upset when I told him this. He then told me that she is the only girl that makes him ‘irrational, jealous, lie’ and another one which I can’t remember at this time! It made me think. I have experienced this, and I’m sure that you have too. My question is this, how can a single person have such a huge effect on us? This is crazy especially since this person is usually not trying to control or manipulate. Sadly, if they did know that they make you feel this way, they might start. Is there a way that we can prevent ourselves from being caught up in this? I’ve been a victim, and it’s the worst feeling ever. Its almost like that person is controlling you without their knowledge. I’m sure you have heard that song by Bryan Adams, “When you love someone”. “You’ll do all the crazy things you can’t explain….” Like get so crazy jealous that you want to hunt down the ex-boyfriends? Or lie about what you did while you were broken up? Or retaliate just out of spite? The more I think about it, the more ludicrous is sounds. Its just a person, yet why can’t we control it? He said at one point that he’ll just forget about it, and retaliate…try to run from it. I kindly reminded him that it will come back to haunt him. Although I’m saying a lot of things, I have no idea where I am going! I decided that running was getting old, and was not working out for me as much as I was hoping. I told my person that makes me irrational, jealous, and lie that he does that to me. Not so much in those words! As much as I thought it was going to get rid of the problem, it hasn’t. But it has started to help me figure out why they do this to me. Well, I think I have confused you enough! Just thought I’d share some of my thoughts on life and such. Have a lovely day!



Song of the Week: September – One Less Reason