Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Desiderata

My dad gave this to me, and said that nearly everyone had a copy of this when he was in university way back when. I enjoyed it and thought I would share it with you....
"Go pacidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.........Avoid loud and agressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater or lesser persons that yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.........keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Excersice caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of Trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtues there is: many persons strive for high ideals: and everywhere life is full of heroism.........Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love: for in the face of all aridity and the disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.........Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the thing of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imagining. Many fears are born of fatigue and lonliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself......You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars: you have a right to be here. And what ever you conceive Him to be and whatever your labours and spirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.........With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy."

Friday, July 08, 2005

The Guarded Heart

I think that every girl's heart is guarded, whether heavily guarded with chains and guards, or just lightly guarded with only a few guards. Either way, our hearts are precious to us and we fear having them broken. I must say that my heart is one of the medium to heavily guarded, with both chains and guards. With every new guy I meet, whether friend or dating material, one of my guard goes on vacation. I get excited at the possibility of finding someone special. However, the closer they get to me and the increased possibility of more than a friendship, the guard gets sent back on duty, and back-up may be called in.
A wise person once told me..."Its better to start getting your heart broken when you are younger. If you start when you are older, it sucks much worse." I think I agree. The older you are, I think the more you are searching for that certain someone, and with a broken heart, comes the realization, that you may never find them.
Thankfully, I have never suffered from a broken heart, but have watched other people suffer, and can just imagine how it feels. I have decided to unguard my heart so heavily. When a guard goes on holidays, I plan to fire him instead, with no replacement. Slowly and surely, my heart will be open enough to let someone in, and I just pray, they won't break it!